heart...
last session with Henri was a bit of a car crash...
he basically assessed us both as ambivalent towards the relationship and each other, I couldn't find a way to disagree. Which was heartbreaking...
Then it went down-hill... tensions were high and things got confrontational...
This is the most significant and longest state of indecision and confusion I've encountered in my entire life (with the exception of puberty I guess)... it's killing me (and Loren).
In a way I was hoping that sharing the details of my current emotional crisis, would spur us on to some sort of new heights and sober us up a bit and create some tenderness and healing...
We're likely not going to see Henri again and we'll try to get some help with Karen, she's been kind enough to offer...