"Life can only be lived dangerously – there is no other way to live it. It is only through danger that life attains to maturity, growth. One needs to be an adventurer, always ready to risk the known for the unknown. And once one has tasted the joys of freedom and fearlessness, one never repents because then one knows what it means to live at the optimum. Then one knows what it means to burn your life's torch from both ends together. And even a single moment of that intensity is more gratifying than the whole eternity of mediocre living." Osho
There are days when I doubt my decision to quite my job and travel to India. On those days, I read this passage and it just makes me feel better. I will always have my doubts and fears. But I'm tired of mediocre living. I just want that single moment of intensity.
I think our ashtanga teacher is leaving Yoga Works – Westwood. This morning he passed around his address book in class. I asked him where he was going. He just said he wasn't going anywhere but just in case he was leaving he wanted to be ready. I wouldn't be surprised if he left. If he does I hope its sometime in September because I won't be here by then and when I get back, I'll probably practice with Noah. If he does go earlier, I hope the new studio will have a shower because that's why it works. We'll find out soon.
Today's practice wasn't great but wasn't bad either. I'm definitely taking tomorrow off. It's always good to rest. It think I'll stay with 5 days week for now. Hopefully after I get back from OHI I can bring it to 6 days a week but I won't pressure myself.
It's been one month since I started blogging. I'm actually enjoying this. I think I'll get better as time goes by. I've never been good at writing and I don't expect to be great at it either. But writing your thoughts, feeling and ideas is a good thing, I hope. I still haven't decided if I'm going to publish this blog publicly but if I do, it will be before I leave for India. Right now I don't think so.