The past few months I've watched time move at a turtle's pace. I've been so anxious about moving on with my life, it seemed like forever. Last Friday, everything changed. My last day of work was chaotic and the days that followed were no different. On my last day, I spent 2 hours finishing last minute work, 2 hours turning over files, an hour cleaning my desk, 10 minutes for my exit interview and 2 hours saying my goodbyes. I didn't realize that saying goodbye could be so difficult. I've worked with a lot of good people and I'm going to miss them. It's funny how much you want to leave when your there but when it's time to leave you want to extend it a day or two. I had mixed emotions that day...excitement, fear, apprehension, sadness, relief, excitement and more excitement:) I spoke to my boss before I left and he told me to call him if I wanted to go back to accounting. It's nice to know that I can always go back but if I do, I hope it's only part-time. I left the building a little after 5PM. As I drove out the parking lot I was emotionally drained.
I had an interesting conversation with one of my co-workers that day. When I told her what I was doing, she asked me to show her my keychain. She said that a person's keychain is a reflection of his resposibilities. I have 4 keys on my keychain(car key, apartment key, garage key and locker key). Earlier that day I had turned over 2 office keys, elevator card and parking card. Now that I think about it, I was not only turning over my office keys but I was turning over my responsibilities. When I leave for India, the only key I'll be carrying is the key for the lock of my travel bag. It's going to be strange to be carrying only one key.
I made sure I had a little more than two weeks after my last day of work to prepare for my trip. I was hoping I could just take my time, slow down, breath and enjoy a few movies. None of that has happen. A week has gone by and I still have so much to do before I can say I'm ready to leave. The past week has been spent cleaning my apartment, doing errands, making arrangements to close out utilities, packing what needs to go into storage, giving away things I don't need, seeing friends before I leave, buying last minute must haves and etc...Time is out of control and it doesn't want to slow down.
Practice at the shala the past week has been amazing. My focus and energy has been great. I am proud to say that I no longer skip vinyasas. I try to give it everything I have everyday. After practice last Monday, I told Kimberly that I was going straight back to bed:) I actually didn't but it was nice to know I had that option.
I finally received my Indian visa last Tuesday. I got the 6 month visa, I was stressing about. My visa expires on Feb 6, 2005 and I leave India on Jan 31, 2005.
Blogging now a days has become more difficult. I used to blog while I was at the office during lunch breaks. I blogged last Tuesday at a friends house but for some reason it didn't save and I lost everything. I don't have a computer at home so I found an internet cafe close to home. I'm glad it's reasonably priced.