"Respect yourself, respect your inner voice and follow it. And remember, I am not guaranteeing you that it will always lead you to the right. Many times it will take you to the wrong, because to come to the right door one has to knock first on many wrong doors. That's how it is. If you suddenly stumble upon the right door, you will not be able to recognize that it is right. So remember, in the reckoning no effort is ever wasted; all efforts contribute to the ultimate climax of your growth." Osho
For most of my life I was always told to do the right thing and for the most part I did. This is the first time I've been told that it's alright to do the wrong thing. I have done a lot of "right things" in my life but I can't seem to appreciate the "right things" I've done. I've decided to do what's normally considered "wrong" so maybe I can appreciate the "right things" I've done.
This morning I had my last practice at the Silverlake shala. I said my goodbyes to Noah and Kimberly and thanked them for everything. They both wished me well.
Tonight at 11:55PM, I board Cathay Pacific Flt 883 and follow my inner voice. A small part of me wants to stay and play it safe but I've worked too hard to make this happen. So there is no turning back. I have given up my future so I can live in the present. I've lived in the future most my adult life that I'm not sure if I know how to live in the present. I hope this journey teaches me how.