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February 25, 2009
Subject to contract..
I'm trying not to get too excited about this as I don't want to count any chickens and all, but I've a good feeling that the 5 week long flat hunt may finally be over.
Looks like I'm heading back to the hill.
Posted by graeme at 11:53 AM | Comments (0)
February 19, 2009
Sleep.......
It's been a strange experience to stay in the backpacker hostel this time around. Strange in the sense that I've never come across so many 'different' people before.
The Argentinian guy who would literally follow you around the dorm, the Australian girl who must've been mid-30s but acted like she was 18 by getting so drunk she didnt even remember any of the 3 different guys she brought back on 3 different nights, the irish guy who said he was australian, giggled in his sleep and got up from bed 4-5 times a night, jumped down put on his coat and banged the door waking everyone up, the 2 brazilian guys who never came back before 4am and talked for atleast 30 minutes across bunks when they did, the swedish girl who sat up most nights watching old video re-runs (thankfully with her ear plugs in), and the new girl who turned up last night, went to sleep for an hour, got dressed in an outfit that wouldn't have looked out of place in the Rio Carnival, who also was quite happy walking around in her rather small g-string. I've asked 2 guys why they are talking to themselves, 2 others to stop banging the doors, chuck 1 guy out of the room for practically molesting the Aussie girl, and help 1 girl off with her top as she was too drunk to get it up over her head.
I've been averaging about 4 hours broken sleep every night and it got to the point where I was almost falling asleep mid-practice at H's. I had to take the last 2 mornings off as 5-8am's the quietest time in the dorm (after the brazilians finish their chat).
The funny thing is I made friends with a good guy from Brazil up in the lounge. He let me have a shot of his guitar and he always stops and asks how things are going. He's funding his travels round europe by finding places that do drug trials and the like. He's currently in London helping on a sleep depravation clinical trial. I'm thinking of going along so I can get some sleep....
Posted by graeme at 11:36 AM | Comments (0)
February 17, 2009
Flat hunting
I'm now into my second dozen of flats that I've looked at. I'm beginning to think that the more expensive a place is in terms of rent the less the landlord gives a shit about the place and is just interested in getting his money from you. I've seen so many places where if you asked the landlord whether they'd let their own son or daughter live in their places they'd undoubtedly say 'no' they've been so bad. It's a real spam valley some areas as well, where it's so expensive all you could afford to eat afterwards is the cheapest of the cheapest food. I'd really like to meet someone who can actually afford to pay £4000 rent each month.
Having said that I've been amazed by the generosity of people I know who once I've told them that I'm looking for somewhere to stay have turned round and put me in touch with a friend or a relative that has a place or a room.
So the search goes on. Another place this evening, a bit out of town admittedly, but atleast on paper it looks quite fabulous. As long as it has a sink that's bigger than my hand like the last place had, it'll be an improvement.
On the yoga front I'm beginning to get stuck in to garbled pindasana at last. The arms are getting closer to getting through though my arm and leg muscles are making it somewhat difficult. It's good to get back to atleast giving it a go, the weeks I missed either being in Glasgow or in Mysore where I couldn't practice it kinda show. Still, little by little progress is being made. I've yet to endure the bruises on my arms that I've seen some people get though that's probably still to come.
Posted by graeme at 1:15 PM | Comments (0)
February 14, 2009
The smallest things
I ended up going out to see my friend last night. It was freezing cold and it took her a wee while before see spun passed the train station to pick me up. I was frozen but grateful of my woolly blue hat that I'd bought from the sellers at Om cafe in Alia's. We'd planned to do some yoga together, I've been helping her out where I can over the last few months but I could tell that she wasn't much into doing anything as it was getting late and she looked pre vacation happy and to be honest I'd had a pretty shitty week myself, so when she suggested we skipped practice and go grab something to eat I was kinda relieved too! Thing is I ended up leaving my hat in the pub. My Mysore hat and even though I phoned them back they said it hadn't been found. I know it's not significant by any means of the world but it took me by surprise how attached I was to it.
I know there's people dying in the worl, people desperately poor and hungry, and yet here I was getting all caught up in my hat. Ok it was damn freezing waiting for the train to go back to London but I can always get another hat. It just struck me as strange how much significance I'd put on it without even realizing till it was gone.
My friend that I ate with is all into 'carpe diem' at the moment and I'm beginning to see the point though she took it quite literally last night when I turned up with some flowers for another friend who I kinda liked and she started thanking me for them.
Next thing I knew she had them unwrapped and in a vase on her mantle piece! I didn't have the heart to tell her they were actually meant for someone else!
So I'm feeling a bit blue today. Valentines has never been one of my favourite times of year and so far this one hasn't worked out how I imagined either. I've been kinda messed up in my head a little since getting back from mysore and I've been finding it hard to break out some of my old thought patterns that have brought me so much heart ache in the past
It's not as if I don't realize what's going on. I've been here several times before after all, but it would be really nice if it all turned out a bit different this time around. I'm way over due some good fortune, especially when it comes to affairs of the heart, though I wish sometimes that I just didn't get so all wound up about the feelings I have inside. All the little thoughts that kick off inside my head - what if this happens, or that? Or maybe if I just did this perhaps it would be different - they can keep me awake so long into the wee small hours. Yeah and the yoga teaches non attachment I know but I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever get to share my heart and my love with another person again. It all seems such a waste.
So I suppose I just gotta do what I've done before. Suck the next breath in, step the next foot forward and try and be as open as possible to what happens, good or bad. If there's anyone listening up there, though, I could sure do with a helping hand.
Posted by graeme at 9:05 AM | Comments (0)
February 13, 2009
Valentines day here already?
It seemed like only yesterday that I was sending off flowers to a girl I really liked.
Huh. I guess some things never change.....
Posted by graeme at 3:03 PM | Comments (0)
February 9, 2009
Nothing going on...
which of course means there is, but I just don't want to talk about it, least not here anyways.
Posted by graeme at 11:42 AM | Comments (0)