Ashtanga Traveler

I really HATE writing....meaning work related writing...it actually makes me feel physically ill. I can hardly move my neck, my lower back is in spasm, my hands and fingers hurt..... I also feel sick to my stomach, coffee is having no effect what-so-ever....I screamed at the boys in the car this morning....even I was scared... it is too early to be pms....

I did not go to yoga

I just can no longer function with stress. I think perhaps I maxed out on stress when I was younger and now I am hypersensitive....like ALLERGIC to it....

I am going home to bed

"DNA Sequence Recognition in the minor groove by hairpin pyrrole polyamide-Hoechst 33258 analogue conjugate"

"Molecular dynamics study of the interaction of a mithramycin dimer with a decanucleotide duplex"

"Triple helix stabilization by covalently linked DNA-bisbenzimidazole conjugate synthesized by maleimide-thiol coupling chemistry"

Now try to say each title 10 times as fast as you can.....coma? or just your dose of "tongue" yoga for the day....

see why I hate writing.....

Busy....inhale, exhale...breathe....

SO Craig's opening was the other night, went really well. I am very proud. He pulled it together despite a horrendous number of issues. But it stood up.....

"Lab Rats"

Needless to say I am tired...it has been a hectic few weeks. Yoga this morning was good, it has been awhile since I been in to practice in the am during the week. I was relieved when i hit the mat and felt okay.....slow slow, new moon...primary series. Knee is okay, left shoulder feels munted, very unstable.

Work. Busy, still not enjoying the paper....

Kids are great.....I visited Huxley at school and met his reading teacher. SHe was terrific. Huxley is doing well, getting the hang of it and she said he is so so keen. My little boy....what a delight....he really really is!

COnrad and Hux are going to "gym" after school....they really dig it...it is the first thing they have both been into...so much they have been talking about it all week!

Signing off for now.....with H's smile....

So I made it in for practice, been awhile....C was away for four days down in Arthur's pass area, he and a friend went up the Waimakariri.....the first people in 4 months according to DOC (dept. of conservation). SO there was heaps of snow. The pair stayed in huts for 3 nights. No avalanches, thankfully.

Anyway, it was nice to be on the mat, at the right time of day for me, with the usal crowd around, felt like home again. The past several months have been so busy, that my practice has been fit in whenever possible....sometimes in the am, sometimes in the afternoon, sometimes at home, sometimes at the shala....but the problem is more with the idea that I have to hurry up and get it over so that I can move on to the next thing on the agenda....so rushed.

Things are going to be slowing down quite a bit though soon.

Second series today, been a while, felt great, not too much, not too little. It does not stress me. I still feel the wave of panic or apprenhension with a few poses...but the feeling passes, unfolds, and is not nearly the sort of obstacle that I used to perceive. SOmetimes I find the seriousness of the yoga practice to be enough already.... it helps to lift me to think of it that way..... so it was quite nice to crack up a bit on the mat this morning.... you know things are going well when you can laugh.

Did a bit of work on supta udrva pada vajrasana.....can hold the bind on the first side, not on the second....not sure why. It feels completely different on the two sides....so it is no wonder one side "works" and the other does not....but am not sure how to change the pose to facilitate the bind on the way up....time I guess.

I also tried to push kapotasana this am, just a tad...as a suggestion from JMS....and it is okay, hanging out and then moving in to grab hold above the ankles versus the heels....it does change the pose for me, at least the way I did it....I dropped the elbows down along the outside of the feet versus inside. Will see what the other feels like tomorrow. I was quite shakey for awhile after that....lightening strike to the nervous system.....

The knee is healing...been a long process though, as any injury....through the process there is more appreciation for what I have and more compassion for others and the issues that they struggle with....so it is all good.

Am going to head off for an afternoon of work at home....enjoy the sunshine and the tease of spring.