Transformation.
Three years ago I was on the path to opening. Found Love, had Child. Something in me died. Got stuck in the game of the ego. Closed down the heart. Blamed others. Stopped taking responsibility. Moved seven hundred miles away. The job is the best I've ever had. The dream job.But the other did't want to join. Kept blaming, kept turning it around. Finnaly the partner had enough and decided to move on. That was Thursday a week ago. Melted down. Head exploded regularly. Stopped eating, stopped sleeping. Felt like I was on spped all the timeTurned myself inside out. She has clarity, vision. Knows what is most important in life. When I visited she was different than I rembered. Reminded me of the first time we met. That person that shot me through the heart. We talked for two and a half hours two days ago. I could feel my heart open, my chest swelling. Even sitting there with the long pauses, didn't want the moment to end. It did and I went to bed. Once again after four hours, I woke up. Drank my tea, Did the full primary, and bound Mari D on one side. First time ever for me. I guess losing 8 pounds in a week helps that. Have been eating really simply. One big realization about eating came to me. As a kid and into the young adult stage I got migraines, especially if I didn't eat.