The Body Electric

Had a wonderful All Hollows Eve with the son, or should I say spider-man. Pulled the denim liesure suit out of the closet and away we went. The shiva costume is in the works, but ain't here yet. Next year for sure. We got together with the sons girlfriend and her parents and wandered around Piedmont. Family fun means so much to me now. Life is getting simpler. Don't care about all that stuff I wrapped my head around in the 20's. Feels good to let it go.
Practice has been going well. Big Berkeley V had me add Mari D and the Boat. It has been month or so since i've even tried the D. wasn't close. Give it a while.
Have been really letting go of the aspiration in the practice. That is definately a new thing. The little voice keeps asking me to ask the teacher, but who is that little voice? Do I need them? Who are they, and why are they telling me what to do anyways.
Still holding anger towards the ex. Holding it in the body. How do I get that out? Time? Some kind of practice? Maybe I need to perform a ritual?

In my first jump back I thought about leaving early. Why does my brain do that? If I was practicing at home, I probably would have. That I what is great about the group dynamic. By my third sun salute, the thought was gone and the ball was rolling. I finally am getting all the clasps in Marichyasana. By that I mean the full, wrist clasp, not just the fingers. Thursday was a great practice. It seems like my best practice of the week is always Thursday. Why is that? Thursday I got all the clasps, but today I only touched fingertips for Mari D on the second side. I can reallly feel my hamstrings opening, and my legs are straightening. I keep wanting to put my foot behind my head. I am only up to Navasana currently. Patience my son.
Party tonight and Ashtange Yoga Berkeley!

October 18th I made the commitment for 6 days a week practice. I gotta say it has been great! I Lfe has definately settled down. Hit a low right as practice started. Last week though I turned a corner. Was able to emotionally let go of the ex. Also think my Non Violent Communication classes have helped immensely. Enjoy having a group of people I can talk with once a week about what is really going, that Listen and provide Empathy. Vance and I also talked about intention in class. At first I was thinking about physical, but now it is about letting go and healing emotionally. Opening up to Joy.
And the practice is progressing quite nicely as well. Starting to slow down the jumpbacks. My shoulder had been hurting for months. So I started stepping back instead of jumping. I can really feel my shoulders (and everything) opening, and I haven't needed any chiropractic or accupuncture. Amazing.
I am getting a little impatient. I really want to put the foot behind the head. In good time. My two and a half year old is sitting on my lap as I blog with one hand, playing with scissors. And life is good.
Oh yeah, and Vance had a party/demo on Friday. It was great to finally meet everyone I had been practicing with. I miss that aspect of community and meeting new people that comes with the other styles of yoga practice.
Sending Love into the Universe.

Added this morning. It's funny, have been wanting it, Vance adds it and I immediately say to myself oh S***, now I have to do it. Mind playing tricks on me. Maybe it is because I have been draging a bit in the mornings with the cold weather, and fighting off a wee bit of a cold. Or maybe because I cut out the cafe. Black tea solomente. Not much of a TV veiwer but have been enjoying UFC. It is a combat sport. The people in there are amazing atletes. Many have yoga practices. Being able to keep composure while in such crazy circumstances is amazing. Heard one guy talking about taping into the universal spirit and allowing the energy of the universe to flow through him. That resonated with me. Being and atheist buddist hindu scientist and looking for the intersection of all religion, I really like that concept of the energy of the universe flowing through me. When I am in a great mood, I definately feel that connection to all things. Last time I really felt it was floating weightless in the warm pool of Harbin, getting a watsu, looking up through the fig leaves, and out to the giant spiral of the milk way. Spiral. In an instant my consciousness shot out into the universe and life suddenly come into perspective. Om nanah shivah. Happy holidays to all.