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New Year

New beginning. What does it have in store for me? Can't wait to find out.
Last year was a rough one. End of a relationship. Being in the mid 30s, I was hoping to be done with looking. Was really hoping to be in the final relationship of my life. So that is the number one thing I am looking for this year. But not wanting to rush into anything as well. Have spent the past 3 months completely single. It has been good, but a little lonely. Keep reminding myself Spring is coming. Birds chirping, sun shining. Feel the need to keep working on myself, on the mechanisms that run my life. Moving back to the Bay Area in July, I am still not grounded in yet.Still working as a temp, and not sure when that will change.
On the positive note I started teaching yoga. One day a week at Maverics gym. Friday nights. I have been wanting to teach for years, and have taken teachers training at the now defunct Greenpath yoga in SF. Now that I have a class, and have students, I was in class teaching and thinking to myself " do I want to be doing this" I think most of all it was a moment of insecurity, and not being prepared enough. Learning, learning about myself. Needing to break out of that shell of I'm not good enough. I am dammit! I am a phenominal man! Why am I always looking for whats wrong?
Where am I going with all this? It is going to be a good year. 1st year of everyday Ashtanga practice. Dating is going to be a blast. Looking forward to building family and community. Patience. No need to rush. Doesn't help any ways.

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