Chatvari

triang muhka ... this asana has always been on the not so fun side for me. unless of course i cheat and not worry about wether or not my knees are touching for the forwadbend. up until recently it was really difficult for me not to feel as though i was tipping over. maddening really, it seems like a not so difficult posture. well i finally figured out, forgive me if this remedial to y'all, that the trick to keeping the knees touching without the tipping sensation is all in the placement of the bent legs foot. i had up to now had the top of my foot resting on the ground which when you think about it does nothing other than create force in the oppsite direction, thus the tipping over sensation. i had been dutifully rotating my bent leg calf so as to make room and lessen the force that my foot was creating but it was never enough and id either have to use my elbow or a towel to keep from falling over. well i think it was monday that it clicked that it was my foot creating all this force and that to counter it i had to rotate the foot along witht the calf so that the foot was snug up against my bum and that the outer edge, the one on the pinky toe side, was touching the floor not the top. its made a big difference. i also go D both sides 1st try.

i got my haircut lastnight which takes maybe half an hour tops well as i walked home there was a HUGE fire in a building on Ave A which started and basically destroyed every apartment within the 4 story building within that time.
i was so deeply affected by a sense of loss for those people. their entire life was gone in the flames of that fire. the east village while in the thores of gentrification is still full of normal working class people who dont have a lot and who more often than not do not have renters insurance. its sad, and i hope they are alright. luckily it didnt seem like there were any casualties at least that i could tell.