This morning when I pulled up to the studio, I actually sat in the car for a few minutes and considered just leaving. I didn't want to practice and I had this sudden feeling of wierdness like I didn't belong there. It was sorta strange and when I observed myself feeling it, it was the motivation to get the hell out of the car and onto the mat. Practice was good... It felt like home around Padagustasana. I got bound in Supta Kurmasana today and my feet got stuck! It's the first time that has ever happened to me... it was kinda funny, I couldn't figure it out, that's always been the easy part. Tim gave me a killer adjustment in Bhekasana. I was almost able to look up at him... and after that my back felt so awesome. I have forgotten, because I can't do Bhekasana by myself anymore, how wonderful that pose feels when you can actually do it. I used to think Pasasana was the pose I'd never be able to do again but, in truth, Bhekasana is really the last hold out of poses that I simply can't touch still. I did my 3 backbends, felt a little stiff but stood up. I was contemplating dropbacks but then Tim came and did assisted dropbacks with me. Then I was reading on EZBoard that dropbacks are "given" -- I didn't know that. I guess that might be why Tim has been coming over right after I stand up. Interesting...

I got to watch the Coconut Stand in Guru The Movie today. It's a really great short clip. The music was perfect. I highly recommend the movie if you haven't seen it already.

It really sucked to go back to The Office today. It's not really the work or anything.. it's just the having to be in The Office thing. It's so antiquated and so unnecessary.... Clearly I'm still working through this change.. .it's much harder than I anticipated it being. I considered starting my work blog again... I haven't blogged there in forever but I'm working with lots of new technology now so it might be fun... plus, it might get the two new C readers outta here ;-) (just kidding).

It's actually been a really freakin' crappy day. The Husband and I got in a huge fight while I was driving to The Office from yoga. The new studio has really messed with my schedule, it's much further away given the traffic -- almost a whole 20 minutes further!!! Given the fact that I used to be able to leave the studio and be in the office in 30 minutes (yoga to desk, with shower), 20 minutes is really difficult to account for. I got all lost in this wierd beta issues with O12 at work and then continued to fight on and off all day with The Husband. Who knows really what we are fighting about but we still haven't spoken and I'm so perfectly ambivelant that I don't even really want to at the moment. We both know eventually we'll speak but I guess neither of us feels like having to hash it out right now.

I've been listening to a lot of Ani DiFranco lately. The other day a song came on the Shuffle (yes, B, I've finally learned to appreciate the value of the iPod shuffle setting) and I realized that I had forgotten how much I like her lyrics. In particular I still dig Self Evident. Mostly I like that Ani manages to say so many F88k yous with such eloquence and not necessarily actually using that word though she often does.

Kiran emailed me today to tell me that my plea to the director at the fancy health club worked and she got a noon class at PAC on T/TH -- this rocks because it totally alleviates my issues with 9-10 Mysore on T/TH. If I can make those great but given it isn't always likely, PAC is only 2 minutes away and I can do the lunch thing (man, my body will be WAY more open at noon!). The classes are led but Kiran told me I could do whatever I wanted in the corner :) Kiran rocks!

Time for reality... :)