Gaia

When the weather is like this on August 3rd, I am a total pessimist. It's 60 and overcast, again.. We just had 4 nice days in a row and then this, again.. This summer has been so depressing, in terms of the weather. God!!! It's supposed to be sunny and warm from july 5 until sometime in Sept. but global warming is upon us and Seattle has become a total rainy place all year, yuck. and we're in the process of buying a house. do i really want to live in this dreary place??

I'm busy designing and trying to come up with new ideas of how to sell my jewelry and I'm looking at some metal classes, which i think i will take this fall. Pretty exciting, since i haven't actually taken metal classes in a few years. i want to refresh and learn more and incorporate that into what i do with Kumar in India. I'm also creating a line of my beaded jewelry for a line of clothing, which is pretty fun and we'll see if that goes anywhere. I have to put my feelers out there if i want to make changes, which i do. So, whatever works, i'll jump on it, but in the mean time I have to continue my pursuit of the new and exciting project that does not include me working every weekend of my entire adult life.

I am sitting in a coffee shop right now and the total weird store phenomenon just happened. For about 10-15 minutes no one came in. then all of a sudden, there is a line to the door. it's so strange, but that's just how it works. it's the same with my business, but that is different because people actually walk by and see that there are others there and it draws them in. The store thing is so weird.

i'm reading Eat, Pray, Love right now and it is really really good and i am taking my time reading it, because i love it so much. she is such a great and fun writer, writing about things i like. Life, travel, self introspection etc...I recommend it to anyone interested in these things.

Yoga is going really well. for the first time in ages, my hip is feeling good. i am working slowly to try to heal my IT band, my shoulder and all the other little pains. But slowly and surely all will heal and life will still not be pain free. this is the reality i have come to. i manifest all of my angst, stress, anxiety, pain, sadness, etc.. in my physical body. so, until i can get rid of all of that, somehow, i think my body will be in some sort of weird ache or pain.

lots of little tidbits today, catching up from my little blog break. I sat down at my computer so many times, with a blank mind, not knowing what to write. today, stuff came out in tidbits.. I have a mind full of too many ideas right now. sometimes that leads me to a sort of crazy excitement. but right my feeling is little different somewhat depressing and not knowing where to go and what to do next... something will fall into place.. oh the ups and downs of being an artist and relying on that to pay the bills..how can we always be on??? anyway, that is that and i am going to design now.

Holy shit!! We get a phone call this morning that we are getting dropped from our renters insurance (Liberty Mutual) because we've had too many claims (2 in 8 years). What is that all about?? We've been paying them and paying them for years and years.. Isn't that what insurance is for?? If something gets stolen or there is a fire, isn't the insurance that we so badly NEED in this country is suppose to insure us that, afterall, we are ok. This is bullshit!!!

Overall it doesn't matter anyway, because soon we will be homeowners and don't need those jerks (we can sign up with some other jerks and pay them more money b/c we own). I really can't believe it, well actually I can believe it, those greedy bastards.

God, I have been doing this market, fair thing for a long time and people always say the funniest things to us. This one may top all of them.

A friend of mine was at an art fair last weekend, his neighbor was a wildlife photographer. He had pictures of deer and bear and elk etc...This woman came up to him and asked, "At what elevation do deer become elk?" He couldn't quite believe what she had said and wished he had been quick enough to reply, " At the same elevation duck become geese."

I have had quite a few laughs out of that since I heard it on Wednesday. I've started to keep a journal of all the weird and funny things people say to us. A few weeks ago, my neighbor at the market was a potter and she is from Australia. She has an Australian accent and it's pretty obvious. Anyway, this woman came up to her and asked, " Are you from Canada?" I laughed so hard.. it's just really funny, no she's not from
Canada, dumbass.

On those boring or frustrating days at the market, I can always get a laugh out of what people ask and say..

I took in New York last summer. My relatives from that part of the world (not New York) are visiting the US right now, having a great time seeing a lot and getting out of the tensions they live in everyday in Palestine.

Anyway, I had a great weekend. One day off, yay!! I went on a super long walk and then H and I biked to Aqua Verde and had key lime pie, yum yum yum... and then we biked from there to gas works park and people watched for a while and then we biked half home and took the bus half way.. We walked in the door and made a quick bite to bring to his bosses annual picnic. It was nice and fun..

Today i had a market and it went well. My Sunday market always does, even when we have these stupid never ending gray skies. God... We need summer to recharge and this has been so fucking annoying. Not a lot of rain, but way too many cool gray days in a row. I wore a thick merino sweater all day today... ugh...

Ok, a little yoga tomorrow. But, I think I am officially taking a long sabbatical from ashtanga. My body and this practice have been struggling too long and now my shoulder is totally torn and hurts, just as my hip is healing. I'm at my 7th year stretch, and need to go in a different direction for a while, while i heal. I know i keep saying that, but it's so hard to leave something i love so much. I feel like crap when i don't practice, so somehow i have to find a balance that isn't pushing my body too hard and i still feel like i am getting in a good and healthy practice. oh, the struggles of pain and getting older and all this stuff.

Yay!! we've had 3 perfect days in a row. I started PT on Monday and am already feeling my shoulder heal... I didn't want to go to the Dr. and have them tell me to get an MRI. So, I am doing the PT route first, if it works, I will heal without all the dr. stuff.

anyway, i went to the market today and i sold a piece of gold. my second this week. YAY!!! I am so excited about this.

Life has pretty much been about work lately. I haven't had a day off in 3 weeks and I'm totally feeling it. But my days have been really busy and I'm totally selling a lot, which is good because my season ends so soon and then my feast becomes famine (well not quite that dramatic), but this is the artists life.

My parents come next week for one week and H is on jury duty the whole time which sucks. I will take a few days off when they are here and that should be fun.

i haven't been to yoga in over a week and i am resting until i feel my shoulder completely healed. I hope it doesn't take long.