girmander

what are the jungle creatures doing this up coming weekend? hrmm... i will be studying yoga with tim this weekend (yay!) and the lion will be hopping on a chinook and flying to a camp somewhere for field training.

yes.. yes... come out with it. "ohmigod! you live in the same house with someone who's remotely interested in "military" type things/right/conservative ect... and... and... you call him your soul mate? doesn't that go against most if not all yogic/left/liberal ect... dogma?" more? oh yes. vent it all out. "i would never! no guns in the house! blah blah blah"

ok done? feel better now? good.

i'm not here to judge. and i fell in love with the person i fell in love with. yeah, it used to bother me. yeah, i remember taking naps at his apt and there would be a 1/2 assembled gun right by my head in the midst of being cleaned. yeah, it wigged me out. but really i'm not here to be a spiritual snob. and actually i find myself quite fortunate that i know and love him. how?!?! well, it's nice to really see both sides of an issue. and i consider ourselves more informed because of that. i admit, i've given alittle and he's given alittle on political issues. we both hate the current president. i've always known i'm more economically conservative and of course he is just given his beliefs. it sure as hell makes for interesting dinner conversation :D

i think the thing that helps me realize the gun issue is that, yes, it's a weapon, yes it kills people. but also yes, there are truly inherently evil people out there that are willing to harm you ramdomly and not so randomly. and if i and other people as reiki practioners can pick up on that, then it's real that some people are born evil while some are just made. and that scares me as a woman/person/energetic being. because we cannot live with some crazy assumption that all people are good because unfortunately they're not and you have to take measures (however which way you'd like) to protect yourself.

"What's a happenin' hot stuff?"
-long duk dong (sixteen condles)

i just went to lunch with my group. and my new boss just busted out with "oriental". as in "my neighbors are oriental".

wowwie.

today i got up to run. i was so sore from tim's weekend. and i actually thought about turning off the alarm and getting 1 more hour of sleep. the mastochist in me dragged my a$$ out of bed and went to the RPAC. the navy and marines ROTC have PT there mon-wed and friday. so, i'm used to having these dudes smear me in running. so, i walked my 5 min warm up and then started running the 2nd to the inside lane for my first lap. and then i switched to the 3rd lane. it was way different today. i totally was in my core and it felt crazy. so, i finish my first mile in 7 min and then i kept trucking. the last 1/2 mile was hard but the first 2.5 were ok. buy the time i got done to run my slow lap to cool down, i realized that holy shit i ran 3.2 miles in 26 min. and there was NO PAIN! yes! i also realized that i really can't run with music. my form gets really sloppy and my steps are so loud. maybe when i get better with my form i'll be able to introduce the ipod.

so yeah, tim's weekend. always amazing. it was really hard for me to return to the studio but, i'm glad i did. i realized how much people missed me and how much i really missed people. and of course it was the best practice i've had all year. the led primary was sick. everyone was slipping like mad. laruga and mary laura just kept on passing my chalk ball back and forth. thank god i had my rug. i can't even imagine what kind of mess i would be if i didn't have my rug. he was pretty lient during backbends. he usually will have people stand up or he will help everyone stand up before moving to finishing. and with 55 people, if you can't stand up by yourself, you're in backbend for a LOOOONNNG time. suffice to say, since the floor was all nasty and slippery he decided against the stand up. and then sunday was improv. alot of arm balances (i am so sore!!!) which also means alot of bandha work. and he calls me bendy wendy so obviously my bandhas aren't as "locked" as they should be. he's here for another 3 days and i'm so sad i can't make it. today is primary, tomorrow is second, and wed is improv again. ahhh... just to make it to the morning practices would be awesome.

interestingly enough, i really paid attention to the sutra exploration. it's really hard for me to grasp the abstractness of the sutras. i can't tell you how many times i've the yoga sutras of patanjali. but, this time when tim broke it down (he always picks the same sutras) i really paid attention. it's so weird that you can go to the same workshop structurally and get different things from it every year.

yes! i finally finished my first soduku.

ok, muki you can laugh at me now.

i've been thinking about my life alot lately and what i want to get out of the time i have left here. i realize that there are things holding me back and that there are things i don't believe in anymore. i'm not sure if this ties into the fact that i'm turning 29 this year and i'm closer to being 30 or if it's a different kind of practice that i'm taking on. or maybe that i really feel a change taking place in my life and lives all around me that makes me think that my relationships with people and the world must change. either way, things change and i feel a real growth period coming on.

i went o see a "body worker" recently and the experience was quite strange. i felt like i had a good massage afterwards but she didn't massage me. i also felt lighter as a result of it. as the day wore on though i started to feel really tired. i took the day off from any physical activity but, i just felt exhausted. i do have to say last night was the most restful night of sleep i've had in a very long time.

in addition to that, i'll be starting a new endeavor soon.

interestingly enough, earth day is tomorrow and i'm seeing stories from npr and other news feeds that there are gas shortages. not only that but gas is forcasted to be about $4/gallon. not cool at all.

the lion and i have been thinking of cutting our consumption by buying smaller vehicles. him a motorbike and me a vespa. the unfortunate thing is that we don't have a garage. i am seriously thinking of finding ways this summer to get a garage. the nice thing is that my new place of employment is ~ 5mi from the house and his is the same. so, we'd really get great mileage if we had a scoot/bike.

i'm also thinking of joining a csa (community supported agriculture). northstar uses sippel family farms. my only issue with this is that we won't know what will be in our basket each week. the last thing i want is a bag full of okra (*shudder*). i'm down with picking it up @ the clintonville farmers market @ 9am. it just that "not knowing". if that means being able to get 1/2-3/4 of our veggies from the csa for $18/week and then the other 1/2 from my dad and other places, i think that it would really rock. not only is it local support, it's sustainable and organic. now, my dad has to get started on the garden out back for this season.

i played around with the idea of taking the cota bus. it's looking mighty bad. from osu (RPAC) to the new place, i'm looking at a 30min commute with a mile walk or a 51 min commute with a .25 mile walk. i'm saying we need light rail here. badly.