So today I taught my last Mysore class. The new teachers arrive tomorrow and take over the class on Monday. It was a very emotional class for me and the students. Random outbursts of "It's not fair!' and many tears were shed. I didn't think I was gonna make it thru without breaking down and sobbing! But I had to put on a brave face and help them through. All the old faces were there to say goodbye which was really nice! The best part of the whole morning was when my most dedicated student who has been working on dropbacks stood up by herself for the first time - what an awesome gift! We both screamed and the whole class broke into laughter and then tears (again). This time I joined them. I am so proud of all of them! I feel like a parent sending their children off to college or something, knowing it will be good for them but still not wanting to let them go! It is going to be very hard for me on Monday to go to class and be a student with them. I will have to keep myself in line. I know there will be a huge temptation for me to help them in their practice - drishti, drishti, drishti! That and finding a spot in a corner where my main view will be the windows! Wish me luck...
I ran into the owner after class and he asked me how I was feeling and I was honest with him. I told him I was angry at him for his decision and that I felt like I was being pushed aside. He was shocked and his only response was, 'But you're still teaching ashtanga led classes!' I said, 'That's not a consellation prize! I earned those classes!' to which he agreed. As apologetic as he was it does not change things so I will have to be gracious to the new teachers and hand over the riens with the faith that they will take as much care with these students as I have. I'm sure they will. It's just hard on my heart...
I have been offered another job by the company I have wanted to work for from the beginning so after all was said and done today I emailed the manager my possible start dates. He responded quickly asking me to give him some time to figure things out. You see, I would be breaking my contract here and that would put him in an awkward position so I guess he has to weigh his options...we will see...